Our Beautiful 2Morrow 2Day

Always and forever more, I'll love you like I love my brothers.

Although suckas try to railroad ya or Mack tractor truck-ya---

Those cats are just losers.  Opposite of winners--- Memph-City abusers.

I wrote this for you, with no beat. Only God inside the home of my mind as well as outside of my window.

Love being pumped to my heart, meeting my mental.

I see what they tried to get you into!

It started waaay back with Mr. Jackson.

Running the natives off and then thought they'd be relaxing.

But you so resilient and you have seen everything they've done.

Now I see why you got favor on me (us) baby, we (I) won,

We (I) were slum! Ducking in the streets when them shots popped off.

A 1/4 mile nomadic bullet took that homies top right off.

You scared me time and time again, but spared me time and time again.

I take it you were just showing and inspiring me how to be a man.

Martin died there, so you showed me how to lend a hand.

And lend a voice, to those who don't know how to expose feelings.

Deal with mis-dealings, mistreatments and what not!

I left you to move to NYC on some, "WHAT NOW?"

But I, maintained focus, it ain't take to long.

Right or wrong? Or whether I write it short or long? You know what I"m on---

You want me to own, moving along, loving me, my own.

And then it won't be long before I'm back.

Teaching through showing these cats how to act.

How to set it up, throw the right curve ball.

How to rightly field a grounder, how to make self so astounding.

Spent days through Central Park tossing lucky coins off into fountains,

Wishing only the best for us, un-unjust....it's just-us, baby.

Some of these folk crazy to fathom us separated,

To fathom us, "city of the dead" and label us "se-dated".

This be for my folk in the streets and those in that corner office.

For my folk in Forest Hill Cemetery, resting peacefully in the coffin

This is for those crying and coughing. I know you tired of being oppressed often.

I know it seems awful, but baby girl but we good now.

I just need you to stick wit me like Clyde and Bonnie.

I'm back in the hood now, doin' this just like I should, now.

They gonna say a lot and throw a lotta hate,

But we gonna play the game raw and wait for it to cross the plate.

Then abuse it like a corked bat.

then hit the lounge and tell the waitress to uncork that.

This is celebration from the pain and sorrow---

I love you today, with a state to appreciate a beautiful tomorrow!

As The SunShines In......The Random Thursday Feelings....

So I woke up this morning to a phone call....It was love. I ignored the first one.  Then she called again....I picked up!

"What you doing?" I said, face half-mashed into the fluffy Ikea pillows!

"Talking to my friends about you"  she said happily!

"Why ya'll talking about me?"  I asked inquisitively.

"We can have girl talk right?" she responded.....

"Yeah, I suppose"  I retorted.

This is were the convo kind of just tailed off.  My love encouraged me to sleep for another 30 minutes and that she would call me back after then.  I quickly obliged and went back to falling into sleep.  But I couldn't.  Thoughts ran through my head of the moves I had to make.  For the betterment of myself, which was also the betterment of our love.  Finally, I'm living the fact again that what I do for me, I do for us.   And I ain't mad at that.  I am not concerned with how the "others" feel.  Some just are not well enough equipped to understand love; which is nothing more than understanding life.  The fine balance of it and how it takes care of you and holds you accountable at the beginning and end of the day.  It's a beautiful thing.

Lately, my love and I have been running into people who are what we like to call "circumstancially insane".  Let me explain.   We talked about this yesterday and first had to realize that we both had done this before.  I to her and her to me.  It's easy to do because we are human and we are a doctor and a writer. (Our children are going to be wonderful).  With that said, it is very important for those reading this to understand that first we must go inner and then we can truly see what's going on on the "outer".  In simple terms......look within yourself first, before you look out into the world to make you feel better.  As Kat Williams says, "It's the esteem of yo got damn self, simple bitch". 

Now on to this topic of "Circumstancial Insanity".  This is a very simple concept.  Things happen to people, and instead of them seeing the truth of the situation and learning from it.  (And believe me, God teaches, as soon as you start complaining.  It's the fine balance of life.  Most times we are so drowned in emotion that it just takes a little minute to see the truth!)  Those who that situation just happened to, take that situation, agree to be weakened by it and then impose it on others.  Basically they trap themselves inside of their own insecurities and fantasy worlds.  Even when the person(s) they are dealing with takes total responsibility from them and apologizes.  They still are hurt!  Hurt causes people to keep hurting themselves or heal and learn from that scar.  Its really up to the person to decide what they want to do.  Now I am no doctor yet, but I am a very through thinker and creative being.  I can only recognize things like this because I have done them and I have been involved in the situation.  These types of things are going on right now where I work, play, read my newspapers, on the internet, in the White House, in the hood, in the suburbs, on the television.  Everywhere!  I just decided to recognize them and share my thoughts and feelings with my love first, and then with the world.

Circumstancial Insanity is real and it's real funny to those of us who see it for what it is.  It's easy to say that you love someone, but it's harder to show it.  But on the flip side, it hard to say that you hate someone, but in this world, it's easier to show it.  Which one are you doing?