So I woke up this morning to a phone call....It was love. I ignored the first one. Then she called again....I picked up!
"What you doing?" I said, face half-mashed into the fluffy Ikea pillows!
"Talking to my friends about you" she said happily!
"Why ya'll talking about me?" I asked inquisitively.
"We can have girl talk right?" she responded.....
"Yeah, I suppose" I retorted.
This is were the convo kind of just tailed off. My love encouraged me to sleep for another 30 minutes and that she would call me back after then. I quickly obliged and went back to falling into sleep. But I couldn't. Thoughts ran through my head of the moves I had to make. For the betterment of myself, which was also the betterment of our love. Finally, I'm living the fact again that what I do for me, I do for us. And I ain't mad at that. I am not concerned with how the "others" feel. Some just are not well enough equipped to understand love; which is nothing more than understanding life. The fine balance of it and how it takes care of you and holds you accountable at the beginning and end of the day. It's a beautiful thing.
Lately, my love and I have been running into people who are what we like to call "circumstancially insane". Let me explain. We talked about this yesterday and first had to realize that we both had done this before. I to her and her to me. It's easy to do because we are human and we are a doctor and a writer. (Our children are going to be wonderful). With that said, it is very important for those reading this to understand that first we must go inner and then we can truly see what's going on on the "outer". In simple terms......look within yourself first, before you look out into the world to make you feel better. As Kat Williams says, "It's the esteem of yo got damn self, simple bitch".
Now on to this topic of "Circumstancial Insanity". This is a very simple concept. Things happen to people, and instead of them seeing the truth of the situation and learning from it. (And believe me, God teaches, as soon as you start complaining. It's the fine balance of life. Most times we are so drowned in emotion that it just takes a little minute to see the truth!) Those who that situation just happened to, take that situation, agree to be weakened by it and then impose it on others. Basically they trap themselves inside of their own insecurities and fantasy worlds. Even when the person(s) they are dealing with takes total responsibility from them and apologizes. They still are hurt! Hurt causes people to keep hurting themselves or heal and learn from that scar. Its really up to the person to decide what they want to do. Now I am no doctor yet, but I am a very through thinker and creative being. I can only recognize things like this because I have done them and I have been involved in the situation. These types of things are going on right now where I work, play, read my newspapers, on the internet, in the White House, in the hood, in the suburbs, on the television. Everywhere! I just decided to recognize them and share my thoughts and feelings with my love first, and then with the world.
Circumstancial Insanity is real and it's real funny to those of us who see it for what it is. It's easy to say that you love someone, but it's harder to show it. But on the flip side, it hard to say that you hate someone, but in this world, it's easier to show it. Which one are you doing?
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